Kassidy Linde posts a lot of before-and-after photos on Instagram showing the progress she’s made losing weight (a total of 130 pounds at this point!) and getting stronger in the last 18 months.

One thing you don’t see in those photos? The body dysmorphia she struggles with on a daily basis. In a recent post, Linde reveals that losing weight led to an obsession with stepping on the scale. She usually weighs herself three times per day, and she admits she lets the number on the scale dictate how she feels about her body. This isn’t what Linde bargained for when she committed to living a healthier life, so now she’s taking a stand: No more weigh-ins until January 1, 2017. Check out her emotional and empowering Instagram below: